Best Friends?

Song of the day: Drinking Games by Library Voices

Photo: and tomorrow is not written by mmarieta

Too many people these days think that their in love. They throw around words without really knowing what their talking about. So many times have i been told that guys aren't interested in me because I'm more of a friend to them. Unfortunately guys don't understand that dating someone they see as a friend is better than dating some girl that they just think is hot and hoping she has a good personality to go with the looks. The person your with should be your best friend. They should be the person you turn to for everything. They should know everything about you and know exactly how to make you smile. Relationships aren't just about the soft looks and sweet kisses. They're about getting through tough situations together. They're about helping each other and knowing each other fully.Your more likely to be able to cuddle and just lay in each others arms AND be able to go out a lot and have a great time if your dating your best friend. Sure, this only comes with time. But doesn't it make sense for you to date someone that seems like a friend because that means you can talk to them and that your comfortable with them? All love is, is friendship set on fire. You start out as friends and it develops from there. People just don't seem to see how much better that works. Next time you say that someone is a "buddy" or "just a friend" think twice about them.

I'm sure you've heard of a situation where a guy and a girl have been dating for a year or two and one of the other has a friend of the opposite sex that they call their best friend. They probably tell everything to that person and spend quite a bit of time with them. If the person you're with isn't your best friend than this can cause problems in their relationship. A lot of times the person will end up with their best friend. So why waste your time? Why break someone else heart to figure out what you want when it's been in front of you all along?

It just frustrates me so much that guys see me as the buddy or one of the guys just because i can share jokes with them or because they can talk to me. Why do they want a girl that just giggles at their jokes and that you have to tip top around? Why wouldn't you want to have a girl that be there for you and that understands you!? Guys baffle me. I have no understanding of why I always become the "friend" or the "buddy". I also don`t understand why this is a bad thing! I don`t understand why guys don`t want that.

Guess I`ll never know.

A Letter

Song of the Day: Cold Heart by Schuyler Fisk
Photo: The Secret Key - *FusedElegance

Dear ____,
I can never really tell you what I need to because you wont let me and because I know that if you did, it would end badly for me. I'd only end up hurt all over again. I don't understand how after 6 years you just let me go. I don't understand how a friendship can be forgotten just like that. Especially a friendship like ours. I don't understand what finally pushed you over the edge. I should have asked for answers at the time but I was so hurt that I just walked away without letting it be talked out first. You hurt me a lot. More than anyone should be able to. It hard to believe that you ever really cared since you can hurt me so much. Who can do that and ever care? I loved you and that's all I ever did and you still did this. Do you do this to everyone that loves you? I wish that every time you lied to me, you had told the truth. It would be interesting to know what you really thought. I heard you were going to tell me you loved me, but only to use it against me. I really thought deep down you loved me even if you didn't say it. But I guess it was lies. I loved the lies. they were comforting. They were safe. I knew what to expect. And every time you'd come back, I'd tell myself and everyone else that you had changed and that this time you were telling the truth. But again, you'd prove me wrong and show me that you were lying. Every time I'd take you back. How could you have that on your mind and be okay with that? You must have a sick twisted mind to keep doing that and be okay with it. If you had any remorse you didn't show it. If anything, you loved every minute of it. It didn't phase you at all. You are so twisted. And so hurtful. Just so you know, months later, I still cry. I still hurt. I still wish you'd come back so I can tell you no. You never will though. Your heart is cold as ice. It always will be. I hope you learn how to treat people someday. I hope you don't do this to her. She doesn't deserve it. She was warned. Its her own fault now. Just like it was mine. I'm sorry I let you do this to me. Goodbye

Broken Road

Song of day: Why This Last dance? - Cauterize

Photo: The Road Of Love by augustrush008

Broken Road by Ali Marr

Memories are written on these streets,

They all scream of you and me.

They used to speak of

Loves hot flame,

Now all they read

Is lies and pain.

You still pretend that

You need my love

And use the same lines

That I’m getting sick of.

We know why we

Took this road

And how we made

That flame explode.

But your back is turned

Your car is gone,

Thought you were right

But you were wrong.

The street lights, bright,

Make it hard to see.

The memories, hot,

Are choking me.

Trying to drive

Till the memories erode

But it seems we’ve

Traveled every road.

You drove away

Because you always leave.

But what you left

Makes it hard to breathe.

Your marks been left

On the road and my heart.

The scars you left

Are a work of art.

I’ve run out of options,

I stay or I go

There’s nothing left to say

That you don’t know.

Put my foot to the gas

And go right ahead.

Greens always going to

Shine brighter than red.



Story Telling

Song of the day: Paperweight Schuyler Fisk
Photo: The Color of an Octave by Darkpiano7

A Song is nothing but an expression of your inner self. To write a song is to write down your feelings and put them into words and then put a melody to it. It has always been hard for me to let someone else sing my songs because they did not feel my emotions that are being so blatantly displayed in this song. They never experienced the story that I am telling when I sing. But later after I started expressing my self through music did I realize something, each person will take a song and make it their own. It doesn't matter what it is that I write about, someone else is going to hear a different story when they listen to it based on their past. The song is my story because I lived it but to someone else who has lead a different life, they are going to hear something closer to what they have lived and connect to it in that way. It makes it easier to share music because then you start to crave for others to connect to your music and hope that they will feel something when they hear it. When I write a song now, I strive to make it my story but also to leave it open enough so that others can find their story within it. If I make it too specific, it becomes lost on the listener because they cannot connect with what I have lived. They can no longer add their own feelings too it. So by telling my story or feelings in an open way, I allow others feelings and past the flow through it and others can connect themselves to the song. Each song you hear on the radio is someones story but yet we connect to them without knowing what the real story is. That is good song writing. Story telling at its finest.

Back To School

Song of the day: Summer Girl - The Stereos

Back to school, it is an exciting, scary, and dreaded time. For a kindergardener it is the most exciting time they can think of at that time. They are finally getting away from their parents and starting to meet other kids there age. For a child going into grad nine it is exciting like kindergarden would be because they are concidered closer to "Grown up" and they are around all kinds of older kids that will teach them the way life is in high school. But it is also a very scary and intimidating time. Children feel scared of what people are going to think of them and become very self consious. For a teen going into grade 12 life myself, you've lost all that fear and insecurity, but you've gained the fear of the rest of your life. I, myself, am so excited to start my last year of high school and get ready to go to university. Its begining a new chapter of my life and finally being released into the real world.

Life Lesson [#2]

Song of the day: Change For You - The Midway State

An Exert from the book Love Songs by Lawrence Sanders

“Because,” Graves explained, “love songs are “nice” songs. They’re dream songs. Pot-of-gold-at-the-end-of-the-rainbow songs. Love is what everyone wants and no one finds.”
That was when Bobbie Vander said somberly, “No Hap. People find it but love corrupts, and absolute love corrupts absolutely. Parents and children, husbands and wives, and especially lovers: love corrupts them all. Because you have an image of the loved one. And the loved one, sometimes unloving, still attempts to adapt your image. But then you find the image is a sad substitute of what you first saw in the loved one. We change to accommodate love. And by changing, we destroy it. That first insanity cools. By changing what we are to answer the lover’s demands. And by answering them, we kill the heat. Nothing more? That’s what the lover asks then. Nothing more? Is that all there is? If there’s everything, there’s nothing. There has to be something more "

"Don’t fall in love, don’t fall in love,
Take wings and soar to find it.
Fly high above, to pledge your love,
And give a kiss to bind it."

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