A Letter

Song of the Day: Cold Heart by Schuyler Fisk
Photo: The Secret Key - *FusedElegance

Dear ____,
I can never really tell you what I need to because you wont let me and because I know that if you did, it would end badly for me. I'd only end up hurt all over again. I don't understand how after 6 years you just let me go. I don't understand how a friendship can be forgotten just like that. Especially a friendship like ours. I don't understand what finally pushed you over the edge. I should have asked for answers at the time but I was so hurt that I just walked away without letting it be talked out first. You hurt me a lot. More than anyone should be able to. It hard to believe that you ever really cared since you can hurt me so much. Who can do that and ever care? I loved you and that's all I ever did and you still did this. Do you do this to everyone that loves you? I wish that every time you lied to me, you had told the truth. It would be interesting to know what you really thought. I heard you were going to tell me you loved me, but only to use it against me. I really thought deep down you loved me even if you didn't say it. But I guess it was lies. I loved the lies. they were comforting. They were safe. I knew what to expect. And every time you'd come back, I'd tell myself and everyone else that you had changed and that this time you were telling the truth. But again, you'd prove me wrong and show me that you were lying. Every time I'd take you back. How could you have that on your mind and be okay with that? You must have a sick twisted mind to keep doing that and be okay with it. If you had any remorse you didn't show it. If anything, you loved every minute of it. It didn't phase you at all. You are so twisted. And so hurtful. Just so you know, months later, I still cry. I still hurt. I still wish you'd come back so I can tell you no. You never will though. Your heart is cold as ice. It always will be. I hope you learn how to treat people someday. I hope you don't do this to her. She doesn't deserve it. She was warned. Its her own fault now. Just like it was mine. I'm sorry I let you do this to me. Goodbye